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Thursday, 09 July 2009

  • nslc: journalism & mass communication (thus far)

    so i've decided to take a little time out of my 15-17 hour days and type up a blog. basically nslc is a ton of fun; i was totally expecting the worst of things, which might be why i'm enjoying it so much right now, but i really don't think of it as a waste of money, as of now. being in the journalism program, we are the most relaxed (dress-wise) of all the programs, and thus the whole experience is a lot more enjoyable...but on to more substantial stuff; my photography class is pretty interesting and the guest speakers are refreshing, if not innovative, and i'm definitely getting to peek into things that i would never be able to see/do without connections...and it's just an overall very nice thing.

    probably my favorite thing so far is being able to twiddle around with $10,000+ worth of camera gear...very intriguing. it's nice being around people who are legitimately passionate about photography and jouranlism, a field that i've loved but never seen myself being able to make it in...with all these peoples' auras of hope and dedication, it's easy to find myself caught up in the moment and imagining myself actually making a difference in the world...surprising, no?

    i've also found myself in the midst of a group of very chill and just-my-type of friends...it's nice, since coming in, i was perfectly aware that there would be a huge group of people who just wanted to hook up with others, to say this in the nicest way, and of course i found that group and yadiyadah but it's nice to actually not have to seclude myself from a bunch of idiots all day...since there are a decent amount of other normal people here. you know?

    anyhow this is a nice little push into my preparations of becoming a better student...i'm thinking that if i can go to sleep and wake up at this time every day for the rest of the summer, by the time school comes around i'll be well-rested and used to the whole routine? and if i keep working like i have been this past week, then something good ought to come out of it...but overall, something just seems to be restored in me. i know a big part of that feeling is from nysc and thinking things over and the follow-up reaction and lots of prayer, but the semi-competitive side of me has sort of been awakened from the dead and is ready to go wherever God takes me, in this field or not. yeahhh.

    okay i'm going to go now...still need to shower and budget my money for the rest of the trip. yesterday we went to old town alexandria, this quaint little area along the potomac harbor (also 25 mins away from where joyce youn lives; i'm so pissed i didn't catch onto that earlier and inform her...) and i bought a pair of sandals on sale so :D no more spending...except tomorrow we're at a baseball game (orioles vs blue jays) and that means consuming a sinful amount of dippin' dots...yum...

    but i'll update some other time perhaps, hopefully when i have free time (i think we have a 2 hour gap some day soon???). elsewise, i'll see everyone on the 17th / 19th before i head off for governor's school...my goodness, summer's already almost 2/3's over?!

Saturday, 04 July 2009

  • this homesick feeling for restoration and peace and retreat
    it's making my stomach perpetually queasy
    ten years and this conference still has an amazing impact on me?
    though this is the first time i haven't cried during alter call...which is pretty amazing, since it signifies a change has occurred in me. on a very personal level, i know for sure that i have overcome probably the biggest hindrance in my life, which has been the source behind almost all of my mental breakdowns...

    so i can finally say, "in with new, out with the old."

    anyway, it usually takes 3 weeks to a month for me to finally get out of this "homesick" state, except i'm being thrown into a completely new environment for thirteen days, starting tomorrow...but i know that i'll be embracing this experience for quite some time, especially if i can't make next year's conference (very likely, but i don't want to think about that yet).

    also, i will say that this year's praise team (from rutgers' church) did an amazing job, though different than lightly salted. nysc is always like a little taste of heaven for me :) i can't wait.

    back to real time, though: i need to transfer all my photos onto an external hard drive and decide whether i want to put the few shots i have from nysc up (cameras were pretty much banned this year) now or later...and wash clothes and pack.

    nslc here i come?

Wednesday, 01 July 2009

  • anticipation and expectations...
    i sympathize for this year's praise team. they have a ridiculous standard to meet, to say the least. as for everything else, the hype is definitely getting to me :). it's weird how after 10 or so years, the same thing can be pretty much the highlight of your year.

    but this one will without-a-doubt be different. hopefully in a good way?

    eek i better finish packing. as much as i hate it, the process is tolerable when i think about how fun the conference will be...and i just remembered that i have to buy a few things before we go, so i'm getting offline now.

    oh, and my (ancient) stereo ate my john mayer cds. i have to pry them out before we leave...

    will update this in a few :)